My job has been stressing me out terribly, making it difficult to do anything but do my driving and then sleep. I’ve been wondering if I’m cut out to be a bus driver. But in church today, it came to me that I haven’t been doing my job with God’s strength. I know I will fail if I keep it up this way. I need to be in complete submission to God, but I wish I knew why I am having so much trouble with that. I know how much happier I was when I lived that way before, how content I was even though my life was chaotic at the time. I guess I can just hope that there are people out there who are praying for me.
For the sake of the children in my charge for the few minutes a day that they are, I need to rely upon the strength of the Lord.