Is it crazy to wish that they’d find something wrong? A tumor, a fracture, anything?
I spent 6 hours in the emergency room yesterday because the pain in my back was so bad I couldn’t go to the bathroom. They took x-rays after much poking and prodding and making me move even though I almost screamed whenever I did. I’ve been dealing with serious back pain issues for most of my life. How bad it was today scared me a bit, so that’s why I went to the ER at all, knowing that I’d be there for hours.
The x-rays showed nothing that shouldn’t be there.
For a good portion of my life I’ve suffered with pain that doesn’t have a cause. And it still doesn’t. When you can’t find a cause you can’t treat the symptoms. At least none of the treatments for my symptoms (usually a drug of some type) have really helped much.
It makes me wonder if I’m headed for another decade of debilitating pain for which there will be no relief.
I don’t want to go there, but if God wants me to serve Him with a thorn in my side (or my back), I will serve Him with a thorn in my side.