I recently met a very nice man. Very intelligent and easy to talk to. Every time we’ve been together we’ve been able to talk a lot together. Not something I’m used to…
He got me to talk about something I’d never been able to verbalize before.
Or, rather, my lack thereof.
Emotions I have. Like most borderlines, I’m extremely emotional. They come on fast and often overwhelm me.
But then there’s feeling. On occasion I feel frustrated, but mostly bored. Sometimes, I feel a flush of affection for my children and, more frequently, a flush of sheer terror at the thought of them being taken away from me. But the majority of the time, I don’t feel anything. That’s the thing that frightens me.
I think that’s the main reason I can’t keep a relationship. I can spend time with a man and enjoy his company, but I feel nothing…
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